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Chloe


My name is Chloe and I am a 21 year old college student in Kansas.

In high school, I developed strong, “more than friend” attachments to other young women and never understood why this feeling wasn’t reciprocated. I did not even consider that I might be of a non-hetero sexual identity. I had never even met a Bisexual or a Lesbian, and my parents had voiced on many occasions their disgust with the LGBT community,  so the option wasn’t available for me to consider. It wasn’t until my sophomore year of college that I became more familiar with the LGBT community and more familiar with the idea of sexual minorities. I fell in love with a woman living in the all-female scholarship house with me that year and it was never clearer that I was not a heterosexual. Even though this love cost almost everything, I know that I am the happiest I can be now that we are together.

I have been searching for a label that will most appropriately define who I am and how my heart loves and I have found it to be one of the most impossible endeavors I have ever faced. I lived the first 19 years of my life trying to fit a heterosexual profile. When I first came out, I identified as lesbian. It wasn’t until recently that I felt comfortable enough to identify as Bisexual. It is difficult to explain to anyone who asks how my attraction works and why I feel the way I feel.  I am not sure how the LGBT community across the globe feels about Bisexuals, but I know that in the Midwest, they are a minority even among the LGBT population. I feel often people are expecting me to commit to men or women only, but I can’t do that comfortably and don’t feel like I should have to.
The love of my life recently came out to me as an FTM and I couldn’t be happier for him. He has gained so much confidence and happiness now that he can be the real him. I love him even more, if that is possible. 

I want to share my experiences with the LGBT community across the globe. I want people here in the Midwest to know they are not alone. I want all the straight FTMs in the world to know that they will find a woman who utterly adores them if that is what they want. I want all the high school students who haven’t even been given the opportunity to consider a non-hetero sexuality to have a voice they can relate to. I want to be a voice not only for Bisexuals or FTMs, but for anyone of a sexual minority that needs to be heard.

Chloe
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Email: chloe.freedomrequireswings@gmail.com
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